Music Project

I started a music project. Right now it's in its beginning, but I'm learning.

Check it out!

Since there is only 1 vocal track there will be more, soon!

Opera Deflower

Return of Happiness

A lot of things give me happiness again since I've been quite sad the last weeks.
Life is a continous struggle and up and down - and that's not bad.
This way I know both sides, happiness and pain and honestly I wouldn't want to change it.
I will go on and work on myself. Trying to control myself through art and understand what and why I fear.

Communication is great!! I love to learn through communication!~ <3

One of the things that give me happiness is that N. and me talk normal again.
That's very nice and I missed to talk to her!

Something important is that someone important came back. <3
I really enjoy chatting. It's always a pleasure and fills my heart with happiness and love.
I'm a very lucky person. I'm lucky that I am able to live on this world, because it is a great world.
Never forget that.

I shall go and look for something to eat now, I'm hungry.

Byebye~

No Poetry for thee

Dear Reder,

I'm sorry to tell you, that I decided to delete all poetry I posted here for several reasons. One might be that everyone could just read and steal my work or use it without any permission.
Therefore all you might receive here are fragments.
I would send my poetry to friends, so all will be okay.

Greetings,
Vivian

26th October, 2009

Now I know what he meant by telling me this ...
But it's all we have. All I have. And all that will remain.
It was hard for thee wasn't it? It was for me, too.
I wish it could have been different, trust me.
Now I've got to let it go ...

Good bye. Subarashii.

Feather's wish

I wish I could make thee cry ...

... and touch thy heart.

~Seeking for ever and ever~

“Thou art falling.”

I wish I could cover your pale body with roses and kiss your soul.


The answer is art.

Moaning soul

I think today is the day.
I will finish reading the last book of the Vampire Chronicles.
I don't want to finish it ... Oh, it's a terrible thought to read never again sth. from dear Lestat!
I will surly cry at the last page.

Drew a new picture yesterday, while listening to HIM a lot.
"I'd kill to share your pain, and sell my soul for you just to say I dream what you're dreaming and feel what you're feeling."
Can't tell how deep that touched.

Honestly, I should be happy for such a life I live, but ...
Well. I AM happy. But there's a longing in my heart - and writing that down feels so good - it's like there's an ideal and I want that to become real.

I wish I could touch.

I wish I could do it as Lestat does.

See you soon,
Karura