Control

I need to control myself.
I've been definetly too sad the last weeks.
The time has come to rejoice!
Spring is near and so shall my happiness grow.
"You're like an atom bomb", that might be right. I will try to control myself better, again.

All I have to think is, it is all about me.
I decide how far I want to go, what I want to sacrifice and if it is worth to do it.
Quite simple, isn't it?
And, what ever happens:
Life will continue and somehow I'm gonna get it right.
That's what I feel deep inside.
I shall always remember this.

Right now I feel good, I feel warmed by love.
No matter what will happen, how it will change, I won't despair. And if I do I shall try to create art out of it. This way no feeling would be wasted, everything will be productive and good.

Life is great! I'm so glad I am alive! <333

Music Project

I started a music project. Right now it's in its beginning, but I'm learning.

Check it out!

Since there is only 1 vocal track there will be more, soon!

Opera Deflower

Return of Happiness

A lot of things give me happiness again since I've been quite sad the last weeks.
Life is a continous struggle and up and down - and that's not bad.
This way I know both sides, happiness and pain and honestly I wouldn't want to change it.
I will go on and work on myself. Trying to control myself through art and understand what and why I fear.

Communication is great!! I love to learn through communication!~ <3

One of the things that give me happiness is that N. and me talk normal again.
That's very nice and I missed to talk to her!

Something important is that someone important came back. <3
I really enjoy chatting. It's always a pleasure and fills my heart with happiness and love.
I'm a very lucky person. I'm lucky that I am able to live on this world, because it is a great world.
Never forget that.

I shall go and look for something to eat now, I'm hungry.

Byebye~

No Poetry for thee

Dear Reder,

I'm sorry to tell you, that I decided to delete all poetry I posted here for several reasons. One might be that everyone could just read and steal my work or use it without any permission.
Therefore all you might receive here are fragments.
I would send my poetry to friends, so all will be okay.

Greetings,
Vivian

26th October, 2009

Now I know what he meant by telling me this ...
But it's all we have. All I have. And all that will remain.
It was hard for thee wasn't it? It was for me, too.
I wish it could have been different, trust me.
Now I've got to let it go ...

Good bye. Subarashii.

Feather's wish

I wish I could make thee cry ...

... and touch thy heart.

~Seeking for ever and ever~

“Thou art falling.”

I wish I could cover your pale body with roses and kiss your soul.


The answer is art.